School was just finishing and April had passed fast as I was texting that girl that ever so much had taken me off my feet just by a glance. I ended up going in beginning of July. I was so excitied and could not wait to spend time with the one I dreamt of day and night, thought of when things got tight, the women that could only show me the light. It was really spectacular to see her again but this time I was going alone to see her.
That was no problem whatsoever! For me being alone and getting time with that beautiful goddess of a girl would mean more us time, and more time I got to spend with her the more my heart seemed to really heat up and lose that crystal coated icing on itself. Just when I thought I could never love again, april just kick started my heart. It was like my heart got lighter, it was easier to breathe but enough about that.
I arrived at her house and she was putting out her dog named Lila. She loves dogs, did I mention that? Well she does and man I didn't like dogs but after spending time with her I grew to love for the first time in my entire life. My aunt has dogs and I hate them so much but she makes me love things I never thought I could love. When I arrived with my luggage to stay at her house for an entire 9 days it was like time paused as she hugged me and kissed me.
Of course my luggage fell because I put my arms around her and held her close to me. It was even better then the last kiss. I was so desperate to see her again that I was going to do anything to see her even if it was just for one more time. I carried my luggage inside and it so happened I arrived there at about 8 or 10ish a.m. but I wasn't so fixated on the time as I got more time with her so really time didnt matter at that point in time.
We got inside and her mother was still asleep so I got cuddle time with her which was unbelievable amazing as it was godly for me to have my lover in my arms once again. I didn't know what Vanessa's parents had planned for these 9 days but god I didn't care as long as I was with Vanessa! Man was it great just having her in my arms and every second was worth those 6-8 hours of riding that bus! It was like teasing someone with their dreams for 6 hours it was just not a great feeling. We got to hold eachother for 2 hours until her mother got up because we werent exactly comfortable with doing that infront of her mother and in all honesty I can understand her point of view since its her parents.
Today was kinda like a lazy day because honestly I really needed it after barely sleeping almost all night. There was a wedding the next day that I was anticipating. I believe either the next day or the day after it. I got to spend time with her that I was so thankful for. I was not really wanting tomorrow to come because you know how it feels to just want to stay in their arms forever and its just this amazing feeling y'know? We ended up kissing quite a bit, romantic she is that is for sure. Her kiss puts me into a trance and that is really wacky and stereotypical to say but I just felt like I was in a dream that I couldn't believe what was before my eyes either!
I got my bed setup on the couch with two blankets and her other dog named Maddi. Her dog likes to lick everything and surprisingly this dog was just calm at night when it comes to licking. I had a hard time falling asleep because I was texting her one, but two I was thinking of her even if she was in the other room completely. I mean being there was so happy and exciting. But can you imagine being in a household with parents you've never really spent time with? But why would I care? I trust her, and all I need is her trust which for me I was always having this twisted feeling in my stomach when it came to parents I didn't know but here it was gone.
I keep getting butterflies when being with that girl it was so surreal. I wokeup the next morning to see my beautiful girlfriend having to leave because she was part of the wedding the next day! I fell back asleep after seeing the last glimpse for the next 6 hours id spend without her. But this meant that I got time to get to know her family so it was a great time to really let them get to know me. We ended out going to a restaurant for breakfast that was kinda like Cora's It was like named fruit or something to that extent, but it was full of fruit that was delicious and little cute Brianna was with us, so precious. I remember that I got something I don't usually get, I believe it was french toast! The breakfast was with her dad, her mom, her brother Eric. I thought to myself at that moment that she even has great immediate family members, i've never for some reason been comfortable with a family when spending a week or even a few hours in their presence even with said "friend" with me.
I ended up leaving with her mother and father to go back to the house and get ready for sure to go to this wedding. I ended up getting ready and her father drove to go pickup Vanessa because he was part of the wedding as well. I was left with Vanessa's mother who in honesty scares me because she reminds me of my father almost to the "tee" if you will. I have never been afraid of someones mother, but I think I was moreso afraid because of the fact that her mother was a major influential impact on Vanessa's life and I wasn't intending on going anywhere! Her mother and I ended up getting ready and I ended up leaving with her brother Eric and we drove to pickup Eric's girlfriend but I didnt have a seat!
Eric offered a seat, but trying to be the tough guy I am I said no I can rough it out. Little did I know the cottage was an hour or maybe two away. I was really really tired and I almost fell asleep in the car ride there. I remember seeing alot of tree's when I wasn't putting my head downwards towards the floor. I mean the air there was easier to breathe as well but I think thats because I was so happy and comfortable there.
I was introduced to family members by her mother and was a little to polite I believe. I met her one uncle and uttered the words " Hello, Sir" and said hi to many of her family members which was nice to finally meet them seeing as she has quite the large family as she even indicating before dating her which was of course perfectly fine with me to be honest!
I was dressed and a grey and grey-white ish shirt as well with my metal necklace and skinny jeans. They weren't super skinny but it showed my legs and I really wanted to impress my girlfriend! I was anticipating seeing that beautiful face for time that was given to but I was jumping in my stomach just to see her even if it was a few hours. I had a camera in hand to capture her very photogenic self and also for the reason her mother requested I take pictures. It felt like forever since she was suppose to come and I really really wanted to see her so bad. After that everlasting feeling she finally came down the aisle and was stunning. I mean truly stunning, she is so beautiful and seeing her in that dress made me just almost drop my mouth. She had a flower in her hair, as well as a flower on her finger and a cowboy hat necklace.
As she walked down I had troubles trying to get a good picture of her and it was too close but just seeing her again made me so happy and even through those few hours of her absence it just felt too long to be without her. It was such a strong feeling of missing her I just cannot explain. Being in the same place and not seeing your girlfriend is like a big punch to the face and I got K.O'ed thats for sure. Her uncle and soon to be aunt got married and were very happy. I am so glad to see her aunt and uncle so happy together because after all everyone deserves happiness.
A little awhiles afterwards we had dinner which consisted of salad, chicken wings, hot dogs, hamburgers, assorted vegetables as well as fruits. I decided to have a hotdog, as well as chips that were available and some vegetables but I wasn't as hungry for much to be specifically honest. There was other foods as well but I didn't have anymore because I am super picky! I feel bad for it but its truth!
That night the partying was amazing, I dont dance, I cant dance and fact is I get embarrassed at dancing but damn well right I was going to dance! But I got to meet Vanessa's cousin named Melissa, and melissa is a bit younger but she seemed like quite the best friend of Vanessa's and I was happy to see Vanessa just being happy to see her cousin. They had quite a confumblement. Yeah I made up a word! I just couldn't think of a better way to describe a distancing. But as the night went on people were drinking like usual weddings, and it got darker and darker and Vanessa and I were spending time with Cameron (a younger boy, about 12 I believe or 9). He was a very nice boy but I really wanted time to spend with Vanessa, as much time as I could get!
It got later and I danced more then I ever have in my life and it was so much fun with Vanessa. I have never been so happy and its bringing tears to my eyes just remembering and picturing it. I mean it was so amazing, slow dancing, fast pace dancing. Her in her cast, but I just cannot forget that happy face. I didnt quite explain the landscape. It was like an entrance to a very easy going house but yet you saw a deck, a few chairs and tables on your right as well as it kind of being fenced in on that side as well on the left there were tree's marvellous nature and generators to play the music. It went a little uphill past the cottage and behind there was a truck. If you got out of the cottage and went left (behind the house) and walked straight there was an out house. But if you went left and kept going straight there was another cottage as well as at trailer on the very left walking up to the other rather smaller cottage. Anyway as the night progressed we ended up sitting in her uncles truck and just cuddling.
I cried so hard because I was so happy with her and the moment was just so right like every other moment with that girl. I mean just holding her hand, kissing her for a second would just make me want to cry. Her kiss was like the most amazing thing you could feel on your lips and make you just want more and fall into a dream. That night was full of love and music. I remember the dance she was doing with Melissa that she loved called the Macaroni. Never a fan of it myself because of the overplayed amount at school it was played but I danced with her anywho! Before heading inside her mother, and I, as well as Vanessa helped through out cans, bottles from the party and proceeded inside afterwards.
We had to go to bed but in seperate beds, what i'd give to cuddle with her I mean honestly holding her was the best feeling ever. It was truly like holding the world, my world! Her perfume smelt so great like always and she just smelt amazing like she always does. We spent about 20-30 mins laying on the bed with curtains peaking open with her parents in the kitchen talking to the newly weds. I just couldnt resist kissing her even if it ment getting caught, it was just so worth at the chance of getting caught. I held her and just sat there and smiled, she put her head on my shoulder. I turned her face and kissed her so passionately like I do everytime I turn her head. She ended up asking me to take off her necklace which I did with delight.
It felt like such an amazing moment doing that for her, I ended up losing the hat for the cowboy necklace as I took it off her neck but we ended up finding it in the bedsheets. It was not lost, and thank god because I knew she liked the necklace! It was very sparkly and I thought it was kinda cool myself! We ended up going to bed around 2 or 3 a.m. I ended up sleeping in the same bed as her father and she ended up sleeping with mother and her niece Mallorie.
It was such an amazing night, if I could relive that moment forever I honestly, truly would. It was just that amazing that I think if I had an eternity to relive it I would. That was our night, and magical, romantic night. I couldn't tell you anymore then she was my soulmate forever. I knew by April that she was my love and my love forever indeed.
The next morning was very hot and Vanessa and I got up around the same time. I collected my phone and my necklace which were on the bedside table from where she left. I was in a scurry to go and see her as well as get my shoes on. I was just waking up beside her and looked for water so Vanessa could digest her pills because I worry alot like that for her. Later on we were outside and the guys were gathering all the afterparty stuff. Tables, as well as the generators, etc. I ended up helping Vanessa and her mother gather the rest of the materials from last nights party!
We had quite the cleanup the rest of the guys and I and boy was a sweating. I don't blame Vanessa if she didn't want to hug me at all but man I wanted hugs more then ever, boy oh boy did I! Her brother ended up leaving before we did and we ended up bringing Mallorie with us on the way back to her house. Vanessa's family as well as I were getting hungry so we stopped at a french fry truck. Vanessa and I were in the car alone, I kissed her quite passionately. I remember we both got water and poutine. Mallorie got picky and wanted fries then chicken nuggets afterwards so Vanessa's mom got out and being an amazing grandmother got her the chicken nuggets.
It was a long ride home but I was so glad to have my arm around Vanessa and feelings for her were not diminish-able at all. Nobody could destory the love I have for her and the trust that I had so strongly acquired with her as well. There was no going back, I thought, I am in love and my heart was hers to hold....forever..
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